Why I Love Anime?

Depending on which way I want to take this question it can get really deep or really simple. I assume you reading it right now are wondering how deep can this go? Well it goes back to when I was in elementary school. (the title should be 'my life story' lol) I ask you to please don't take anything what I am going to say against me...

DEEP DARK ABYSS AHEAD

In elementary school I had a really hard time fitting in. My mom had recently married my stepdad, Roger. It was tough and you can guess that I lived being insulted and lectured by him. Everyday I feared getting scolded for something small I had done. My life is still similar now, I am afraid of him. Anyways, the reason I tell you this is to get into the topic of me being a hermit. I am a hermit because I am afraid to leave my room a lot. I  got bullied a lot when I was younger and got bad grades and I felt like I was useless overall. This still hasn't really changed but I've grown numb to it. I see no reason to even try most of the time, I have no friends and hardly enjoy anything to do with social interactions. I fell back on fantasy life too much growing up. Anime had begun to be my only way of escape. I used to watch Pokémon every morning at 8 and go on Netflix and watch it... A terrible incident happened with the anime on Netflix and Roger hates it and so whenever I would watch it on Netflix he'd end up blocking that show from being watched. Roger has always been rude and inconsiderate. When I started going to the Junior High was when the real anime watching started. I binge watched series of anime on Netflix and stayed up really late at night watching them. I was a real night owl, stayed up till sunrise and slept till dinner... Well, I mean I used to watch anime on Netflix Roger would come in and see what I was watching (Netflix was out in the living room) and always say the same thing, "watching this shit again?" One time he thought I was watching too much inappropriate anime and tattled on me to my mom. Of course my mom knew what I was watching so she didn't lecture me. But growing up around Roger was really hard. I felt like I couldn't really be myself at home especially around Roger. I stopped sitting at the dinner table for a really long time and if I did I never talked. So I avoided getting in trouble or lectured altogether by staying in my room. Everyone was really against me watching it for quite a long time... My real dad accepted that I loved it and to this day I watch it with him lol. I loved watching anime with others but it's really hard for me to keep friends so I got used to watching anime alone.

As I grew older into High School I became more introverted. I only relied on anime for my happiness. I started becoming used to being bullied everyday and never did homework or tried because none of that stuff even mattered to me. All that I cared about was my anime and video games. I still do care about them more than anything. I can't go a day without thinking about my fandoms. For a long time my depression got the better of me and for too long I stopped watching anime and playing video games. When I got back into it I became really happy again. Not that I didn't have friends at the time, they just never really act like friends. I recently lost one to disconnection and she was the only one who I could fan girl about my anime.... The best thing about being in high school right now is my anime obsession and I still have to wait to find someone who is just as excited as I am for anime.

I am always so frustrated by how many people judge me just by how weird I am. I am a very angry person, I grew to really hate other people. I also learned to accept things quickly and I am okay with being labeled as weird. I am what I call a freak but in a good way. I do not think negatively anymore and be happy with the little things I have in my life. Anime is a big one, but so are my parents and the acquaintances I have. I enjoy saying good morning to everyone and smiling. I sometimes just forget I was bullied all my life and I know that things get better. Like one day I'll be publishing books and making them into anime. I want to inspire others and be special to someone the same way anime is very special to me.

THE STORM HAS SUBSIDED

Aside from a very emotional reason I love anime. A pretty simple reason is because I grew up around it. I love anime for it's art style, stories, characters. Without anime I wouldn't have been so artistic and get inspired to write and create characters. Anime and many things around me inspire me to write and create characters. I am huge on writing. I want to draw and write manga and even try and make anime. Although I am not the best artist I do acknowledge I have some skills. I have a great memory at remembering stories I wanted to write when I was even in elementary school. It's all because of anime why I am so inspired today to write. Anime helps me see the good things in life. In my next post I will include quite a handful of anime that changed my life and what I am into today. Thanks for listening~ I hope you have a great day! :3